Sunday, November 10, 2013

Life's Journey

My poor neglected blog and hobby. . . As most of you know it's been a rough couple of years for me and so many changes in my life with my Mom's illness.  I've traveled a path of pain and sorrow for the losses in my Mom and have now embraced where she is at and realize that it is all in God's hands.  I miss the Mom I had terribly and there isn't a day that goes by that I would give anything to sit down and talk to her. To hear her say I love you.  All that made my Mom the wonderful loving and caring person she was is gone.  All that is left is a shell that holds a lost person.  I've learned that the brain is so powerful and when it doesn't work as it should it takes so much away from a person.  I am not the same person I was a year ago and am painfully working to find myself.  I struggle with my creativity and I worry that it's lost.  I don't want to give up, but struggle with how I hold on.  I've neglected so many of you and for that I am sorry.  I always felt like my blog friends were my second family.  I thought about taking some time off but fear if I do that I will never come back.  I am fortunate that the design teams I am currently on are understanding of me and understand where I am  in life.  A big thanks to Leeanne and Barb for being there for me.   I realized the other day that I had created a layout for the October sketch challenge at Purple Pumpkin that I never posted on my blog.  I guess better late then never.

I am working on a couple of projects.  What use to take me a matter of hours to complete now can take days.  I am hoping to get them completed and posted this month.

Thanks to all of you that understand where I am at in life.  You never know where the path will take you or what it may hold.  One day at a time . . .

-Debbie

7 comments:

Julie Tucker-Wolek said...

Huge huge huge huge hugs my friend!! Praying for you and your Mom daily! I loveeeeeeeee your lo!! Sweet little photo and loving the flowers!!!

~amy~ said...

Thinking of you and your Mom....hang in there. Your layout is over the top gorgeous!

Ashley Horton said...

Beautiful layout Debbie! So glad you shared it! And you can only take one day at a time and do what's best for you and your mom!!

Lizzy Hill said...

Hey, Debbie, you are a FABULOUS scrapper...never doubt that for a minute & as long as you enjoy doing it, you won't lose your touch! Busy time for you...you're doing well to even keep doing some...go easy on yourself & I hope you're managing to work it out with your Mum's illness. Not easy....hugs, Lizzy xo

Lizzyc said...

Hi Debbie, Yes I too feel like the scrappers in blog land are like family, and as such, we do understand that you have more important matters with your Mum and all that involves.. You will not lose your scrapping abilities, they will come back when you have the time to relax and create.. I am sorry to read about your Mum, my dad was diagnosed with Alzheimers so we do not not the road ahead for him either.. I send you love and hugs... take care of yourself too.. xx

Unknown said...

So glad you are able to squeeze a little scrapping in here and there. Thinking of you

Sandi Clarkson said...

I am loving this one, Debbie. Do not worry about your creativity, dear, you have tons! It may ebb and flow along with the highs and lows that you've been through but I am confident it is as strong as ever. It just takes more of a push sometimes. At least that is how it is for me! Hugs! Sandi