I have a lot of goals for the new year. The year 2012 was a difficult for me. So much loss and heartache. I spent last year taking care of my mom. Most of you know that she was diagnosed with Alzheimers. It's been heartbreaking for me to lose my mom little by little. I miss her terribly as the part of her that use to be the caring and loving mom is gone. I miss those moments of talking to her about my day, my children and life in general. I've experienced emotions that I never knew I had and have struggled with depression. I know that changes have to be made for me personally. When I saw the January sketch challenge at Once Upon A Sketch I knew it was the perfect challenge for me:
The new year is among us. What better way to celebrate change, renewed hope and having a positive attitude than with a brand new year? A new start...a new horizon and the start of something new! A new year is full of possibilities. So in honor of the start of 2013, we would like you to create a layout and interpret the theme "The start of something new..." however you like. Whatever that sentence inspires you to scrap then go for it.
I am also entering my layout in the February Challenge black and white photo at Inkido.
I have to mention that my son criticized the picture of me on this layout. He questioned why I had to use a picture of me that was so serious, yet so sad. I told him that I wanted to use a picture of how I am now, and hopefully down the road will do another layout of myself with a cheery smiling picture.
I loved working with Nadia's sketch:
My favorite part of the layout is the bottom right hand corner. I used a large fabric button from Purple Pumpkin which symbolizes me caring for my mom. I surrounded her picture with flowers as she loved to tend to her flowers.
The boots and umbrella symbolize the rain, which Mom always said, "I never mind a little rain, as it saves me watering".
My title, so important to me:
Here tucked beneath the paper is a green journaling tag. A personal and private note from daughter to mother.
A lovely cluster of flowers a reminder of the gift of gardening that my mom taught me.
Last of all I dug into my rub on stash and used lots on my layout:
I shed a few tears working on this layout. I reminded myself that I need to start taking care of me. One day at a time Debbie, one day at a time. . .
Thanks for stopping by!
. . . Debbie